Tuesday, November 24, 2009

忙.忘.亡 - 洪思行

2009年11月24日
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洪思行
忙.忘.亡



中五的時候,我和其他同學一樣,「忙」着應付會考。忙,或者是以為自己很忙:返學面對測驗考試,放學後又有補課,或曰到自修室溫書。我比其他人活躍一點,會加入學會參加什麼校際音樂節等等。我們那麼忙碌,是為了「過關」。老師說,難關過後是美好的happy year。我們都相信這是值得的、應分的,並對此不曾懷疑過。

成功過關後,雖然高考那微弱的號角聲偶然會在我們的心中響起,不過我們的確享受了優游自在的一年,但原來那只是暴風雨的前夕。高考的程度較難,我們要多花心機應付它。於是我們重投忙碌的懷抱,忙着溫書至凌晨三四點,忙着蒐集 marking scheme,忙着做十多年的past papers。我們那麼忙碌,是為了一張大學入場券,以及多姿多采的大學生活。我們都相信這是值得的、應分的,並對此不曾懷疑過。



入了大學後,曾一同忙碌過的戰友各散東西,各奔前程。舊世界崩壞了,不再復返,只好憧憬新的世界。面對新環境、新朋友,唯一不變的,是忙碌的生活。大學的生活實在豐富,大學六件事,除了讀書求知識,上莊學習軟知識、住宿舍變得獨立之餘,又要兼職賺外快,當然少不了求偶的機會。我和很多新相識、舊朋友都全心全意投入生活裏去。

享受精采的生活,腦袋總要付出代價的。生活實在太忙碌,大家都因忙而忘:好朋友的生日,忘記了;許下的諾言,忘記了;聚會,忘記了;伴侶的心情,忘記了;關心朋友的話語,忘記了,甚至連咫尺間的朋友的樣貌,也漸漸變得模糊起來。幸好有facebook,冰冷的熒幕仍儲起點點記憶。我們那麼忙碌,是豐富自己的生命,或是為了實現理想、得到一份優差,什麼也好。總而言之,我們都相信這是值得的、應分的,並對此不曾懷疑過。



精采的生活終歸不像童話故事,能持續下去。隨時間流逝,大家都要面對畢業和找工作等現實的問題。於是,大家只好放棄精采的生活,忙着做final year project或畢業論文、忙着豐富自己的履歷表。我們以為過了這關鍵時刻,一切都安頓後,便能重掌自己的生活。但我觀察到,不論是找到工作還是繼續讀書的,依然逃離不了忙碌的魔爪。我們還是要忙着加班、應付功課、考牌、忙着忙着……

忙碌過後,上班一族已經是身心俱疲,再沒有餘力去做自己想做的事,只能早早休息,第二天再上班去。不知不覺間,我們忘記問何時不用再忙碌下去,心靈慢慢地被工作蠶食去,靈魂漸漸枯死。

年輕時以健康換金錢,年老時以金錢換健康。大家因忙而忘,再因忘而亡,我們還相信忙碌是值得的、應分的,並對此不曾懷疑……

我不知道,真的不知道。



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Monday, November 23, 2009

追‧ 趕

都市人天天也在趕,可有時間去想想自己的生活狀態。

每天每刻也不想浪費,連行路都想快一點走在人前。但為什麼?我們真的要完成這麼多的事嗎?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

A reflection on the ruling of government and laws

On today newspaper, there is a report on a trans-gender woman apply for judicial review after Marriage Registry rejected her application according to Marriage Oridance. This is of course an interesting issue that worth our attention as it touched the basic doctrine of Christian religion and will certainly brings a debate in the society.

And other interesting point I noticed from a TV news reports another trans-gender woman-to-be. S/he commented that "the marriage status is not only a status recognise by the society for the succession of Estate....etc. but also recognisation by the Government....etc." What caught my attention is the word "government", I thought to myself why s/he said government instead of under the laws? Are we under the rule of the Government or the rule of Laws? Remember, the government is merely a member of the society which operates under the Laws too just like everyone of us.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Another side in celebrating the fall of the Berlin Wall

It has been overwhelming report of the 20th celebration of the fall of the Berlin Wall. Leaders from the "Western" world all joined together saying this and that.

However, every celebration assumed something good/wanted has happened or something bad/unwanted has not happened or ended. In the case of the Berlin Wall, what the World sees is how people defeated communism, dictatorship, world with no freedom, and Germans finally united. On the other side, there is voice saying that celebrating the unification of Germany is a kind of Nationalism. Behind such claim, there is a much deeper value that worth our attention and reflection.